I want to take a nap.
It’s just one of those days.
For one thing, it’s raining. And another thing: I was up past my regular bedtime last night.
And right now I’d (ALMOST) give up my right arm just for some caffeine, except the problem is that I’ve told myself, “No soda except on weekends.” Darn brain trying to teach me how to be healthy. Now’s when I REALLY wish I liked coffee.
But I digress.
It is a slow week so far, yes. (And yes, I know it’s only Tuesday.) What a change from a week ago.
But, you know, schedules change when the kids are sick and you finish some major project you’ve been working on for 11 months, maybe, say, like a book?
Yes, I have finished the book!
I am waiting on some revisions from my sister, and then I will be good to submit my very first manuscript! I am so super excited!!!!!
With the completion of the book come changes. Some I am ready for. Like taking on a thorough cleaning of the house. Catching up on emails. Finishing a few projects that I’ve had sitting around.
Other changes I’m not sure I’m ready for. Things like trying to figure out what is the next thing in my life, especially if that means full time work. Part-time work is a little better, but yet, not my dream job. Yesterday, I submitted my first applications for part-time work, and I’ve already received one phone call for an interview later this week. I’m not sure how I feel about it, but here’s where I am asking you for a favor.
Here’s where I call you my community, my friends, and hope you love me as much as I love you (insert cheesy smiley face here). I covet your prayers this week, friends, because I may or may not have important decisions to make on the fly this week. These are decisions that will take my life in another direction or keep me on the same path. I don’t know if God wants me at home blogging every day with you, if He wants me working on another book, in full-time work, in part-time work, or something else altogether.
What freaks me out the most, I think, is a new routine. And my emotional stability. Some part-time jobs I applied for don’t allow for me to attend Bible Study anymore. (That’s when I think, “There goes my emotional support system.”) A new job may require me to get less sleep and/or to quit going to the gym. (That’s when I think, “There go my hopes of losing weight and becoming healthy and here comes back pain.”)
Now if I were to be completely honest, I would say, “Dear God, please bless me with income from this book to last me a few years so I can stay at home and blog to my heart’s content.” If you want to pray that prayer for me, I’ll gladly accept it. (ha!) But what I really want–what’s the most important thing–is to be wherever God wants me. Last year around this time I felt strongly about where He wanted me, and now I’m in that place of discernment again. Please pray that He would give my husband and I wisdom to step out in the right direction, that He would provide for our family financially, and that we would all be at peace with the decisions that must be made.
That being said, I would like to return the favor. What are you struggling with this week? How can I pray for you?